Some people dream of achieving things or finding that one true love. These aren’t the kinds of dreams I’m going to be talking about here. I’m going to be talking about actual dream dreams. Why? Because I’ve been having lots of really intense, strange ones lately, and they’ve prevented me from getting restful sleep, which in turn has caused me to not be anywhere near as mentally focused as I should be.
What causes them? I have no clue. I’ve never bought into the whole dream interpretation thing. As far as I’m concerned, dreams are nothing more than your brain’s way of being active while you’re asleep, and what happens in them is rarely related to anything real that’s going on in your life. This isn’t always the case. Sometimes real life can intrude upon your dreams, but generally, when you’re not overly stressed about anything, they’re simply random scenarios that play out while you sleep.
For example, recently I had a dream that I was in the Tron world with David Hasselhoff and some other kinda short guy, and David was being forced into fighting this bitchy Tron chick in the disc arena. Then it all suddenly changed, and I was in an underground structure of some sort that was largely abandoned in the section I was in, but if you walked down a hallway, it led to a college. There were a few study booths with a window in each, but nothing else in the area I was in. I walked over to the large far wall that led up the ramp to the way out, and found that the cement had broken away from the base of it leaving a large, jagged, open ditch that was filled with trash. I had to pee, so I started peeing in the ditch at a place around where the trash ended, and then I woke up, because I actually did have to pee. There’s been many times that I’ve dreamed I was peeing because my mind was trying to tell me I actually had to. It kinda freaks me out, because when I pee in a dream, I can always feel myself letting go, and that feeling of relief as it comes out, and I’m always afraid I’m going to wake up to find out that I actually did pee. Man, how uncool would that be?
Anyway, this is just an example of one of the dreams I’ve had lately. Some people claim they can recognize when they’re dreaming. I can’t. For me, whatever’s going on in the dream is my reality at the moment, but since it doesn’t make a lot of sense, and because I’m such a logical and analytical person, my mind is constantly wrestling with it all, trying to make sense out of that which doesn’t make sense while at the same time existing in that moment and dealing with whatever’s going on. It’s this internal struggle that causes my sleep to be less than restful. I wake up feeling stressed and like I’ve hardly slept at all.
I go through these periods of intense dreams once in a while. I don’t know why, but I do. It’s not that I don’t enjoy dreaming, because I actually really do enjoy it, but when it goes on for days at a time and I don’t get the rest I need, it really takes its toll.
Anyway, since my life is rather boring, that’s what’s been going on with me. I haven’t had a lot to report. I have an idea for a film script, but I’m not sure how well that will develop, or even how much focus I’ll be able to put on it, but it is a good idea. I also want to get back to reviewing for B-Movie Central. I know some people can sit and pound out review after review, but I’m not one of those people. I can only write when the mood strikes me, which is why my stuff for Rogue Cinema is always done at the last minute. I’ve said for years that I’m totally burned out on writing, and that’s still the case. I really could use a few months away from it, but unfortunately, it’s what I do, so there’s really no way I can take a break from it, much less that long of a break.
So that’s basically it. Nothing really to report. I’m planning on ordering an Axe-Fx II…hopefully this week when they’re put up for sale. If I manage to get my order in on the first batch, I’ll make a post about it after I get it. For right now, I need to get to work on my reviews for the magazine. I have seven more to get through and I can feel the sleep coming. I might have to put the magazine off for an extra day just so I can finish everything up and get the proper rest I need to be able to face it. We’ll see how things work out.(Current Mood: tired)